Signs that God Sees Me

Hello friends! It's Bre here.

I am so honored that you are taking time out of your day to read what I have to say.

Today, I'll be talking about a topic close to my heart- singleness. Although I've had my fair share of situationships, I've yet to have an official boyfriend at almost 22 years of age. This used to bother me, but honestly, I am starting to see the beauty in the story the Lord has given me. Although I was insecure about it at the time, I am SO glad I spent my time studying rather than Snapchatting boys during my teen years. Huge shoutout to my mom and dad for raising me the way they did.

I don't know what has been in the air this post-grad season, but there have been many boy situations pop up. No, I haven't been on a date with any of them, but I've been asked on three, and it's only March.

"Okay, weird flex," you might be thinking. First of all, all glory to God, and second of all, although these silly boys have caused me a lot of stress these past few months, I've also learned so much about myself and what I desire in a future partner one day.

God Records Your Prayers in His Book

At the beginning of this year, I was reflecting on my college experience and had a sad realization- not one boy had asked me on a real date. This was quite discouraging considering the fact that I thought I would meet my future husband in college. However, the only "ring by spring" I got was my Aggie ring.

Before my freshman year of college, I attended a camp called Impact. It is designed to help soon-to-be college kids find a Christian community and encourage them to join a church in the College Station area. This camp was a new experience for me, as I had never been to a church camp before.

One aspect of the camp that I was particularly drawn to was the prayer room. In it were a handful of counselors who would continuously pray at all hours of the day. I was truly amazed. They took the whole “pray without ceasing” thing very seriously. One night, while everyone else attended a dance party, Bailee and I went to the prayer room to get prayer over our futures.

The girl who prayed over us was so kind, and Bailee and I both cried. She wrote out a prayer for me, and I still have it to this day. Part of it reads, "I ask that as she enters the dating scene, she continues to lift her future husband to you, and that she finds someone who is running after you at the same pace as her. Remind her of the way she deserves to be treated, and help her guard her heart from any men who do not model Christ-like love.”

Fast forward to the beginning of this year when I was feeling really discouraged about my singleness. In my sorrow, I came across the prayer that was written for me at Impact. “I do not even know why this was written, " I thought. "No one even asked me on a date in college."

While I thought God had forgotten about my desires, He was just waiting to address them in His perfect timing. God knows me better than I know myself. If I had gotten a lot of attention from boys in college, I would've been very distracted. Plus, I think God wanted to answer my prayer amidst circumstances that show that He can do the impossible.

Below are a few examples of how God has sent me signs that He is moving in my love life. I hope these stories make you laugh, but also remind you that God is a God of the impossible. He hears your prayers- even your delusional and desperate ones.

Banners > Boys

In college, I had a lot of crushes. In my free time, I'd try to become friends with them and/or flirt with them. When I graduated college, however, I was worried. "How am I going to find another crush?" I thought. Sounds silly, but it was a genuine fear.

I graduated in December, and before the month even ended, there was a guy who was interested in me. The guy in question happened to be heavily involved in FFA, as was I. In high school, my main focus at FFA contests was winning, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't dream of meeting a cute boy in a blue and gold jacket. Although there were definitely some cuties, none of them ever pursued me. That's okay though because this gave me extra time to focus on earning my two national championships and seven state championships.

I mean I really can't complain about my FFA experience. I arguably got the better side of the coin. I'd take a banner over a dumb boy any day. But I guess the Lord wanted to show me that He hears every cry of my heart, so he sent not just any FFA boy- but a former FFA state officer my way. Although it didn't work out, God used this experience to show me just how good of a Father He is. He wipes every tear from my eye and loves to give good gifts to His children.

Biochem Boyfriend- Post-Grad Edition

If you were on my private Snapchat story in college, you'd know about my biochemistry boyfriends. No, they weren't actually my boyfriends, but they were guys in my biochemistry class who were always willing to help me with assignments, study tips, etc.

Again, after I graduated college, I was sad that this silly season of my life was over. I had no idea how I was going to find another crush. "What about work?" people would ask. In theory, that would be a great place to meet someone; however, because I had secured a position at a women's clinic, the odds of me meeting a male weren't looking very promising. BUT GOD.

When I tell you there is literally ONE male working at this company in the East Texas area, I am not exaggerating. What are the odds that I would end up working at the clinic he works at? Not very high.

Even when I did find out that I would have a male coworker, I still wasn't super excited because I figured that, like most guys, he wouldn't be able to tell my sister and I apart. Even if he could, Bailee had historically been the one to get more attention from guys, so my hopes were not very high. Never doubt the Lord because this guy not only could tell us apart, but he also showed interest in me rather than Bailee.

This healed a lot in my heart, as it not only debunked the lie that I am the less attractive twin, but it also showed me that someone could be attracted to me based solely off our in-person interactions. Most of my past interactions with guys have happened over social media, which caused me to believe that perhaps I just wasn't desirable in real life. Although my male coworker isn't my crush and isn't my future husband, I'm considering his presence evidence that God cares about me and my seemingly silly desires.

The Athlete

Sometimes, whether we like it or not, it simply is not God’s will for something to happen. For example, although I never showed it, in high school, I desired to have a boyfriend. However, I was known as the academic girl who hardly spoke, and admitting that I thought anyone was attractive felt way too vulnerable because I was sure I would be faced with rejection. Honestly, this was probably a valid fear because no one in high school saw me as much more than “one of the twins”. At the time, I felt so overlooked. However, God has continued to redeem this time of my life.

I was a cheerleader all through middle school and high school. Low-key, I always thought maybe being a cheerleader would be my ticket to getting a guy’s attention. I could understand if being Valedictorian wasn't exactly a turn-on for them, but all boys liked cheerleaders, right? Probably true, but it seemed like all the football players desired all the other girls on the squad besides me. It was like I wasn't even an option to them. Looking back, I know it was simply not the right time, but in the moment, I truly felt invisible.

Fast forward to recently when a guy from my high school added me on Snapchat. I accepted since I knew the guy, but I thought it was weird he was adding me nearly four years after high school. He sent me a snap and started a conversation. "No way he's hitting on me," I thought. I had seen him a few times since we graduated, and we hadn't spoken. In fact, I could probably count on one hand the amount of times I've interacted with this guy. In high school, he was a football player, a track star, and always had a girlfriend. Naturally, I never thought he would ever be interested in me.

He eventually cut to the chase and asked me to get dinner with him the coming weekend. I was shocked and honestly a bit suspicious. "Why all the sudden interest?" I asked him.

"Well," he said. "I heard your name recently and thought I'd give it a shot." He went on to say that he and another guy from my grade were discussing class ranks.

"That explains it," I thought. "I bet my name came up pretty quickly," I said. "Bonus points if you know which one of us was Valedictorian." (You've gotta show these boys a little sass LOL).

He said he knew it was me and had intentionally chosen me. Things didn't end up working out between us for several reasons, but this interaction healed a part of me from high school that was hurting. Not only did I finally receive attention from an athlete, but I was also remembered for my class ranking. To be honest, after giving my Valedictorian speech on graduation night, I was sure that none of the guys even paid attention. This interaction is proof that God hears every prayer of mine and delights in healing my heart.

Practical Application

I have several other situations I could write about, and I probably will, but for now, I'll leave you with some practical advice. My mom often tells me to "be still" and wait on God. But I don't like that advice because it's not very specific. If you are like me and like specific examples of things you can do to combat sadness during your single season, here is a list :)

• watch a show

• post on social media

• craft a playlist

• get nails done

• read a book

• spend time with your family

• have a silly girl's night

• learn something new

• make a TikTok

• take pictures

• facetime a friend

• watch youtube

• create something

• cook

• workout

• color

• sleep

• cry if you need to

• read your Bible

• read a devotional

• listen to a podcast

• work

• volunteer

• watch/do something that will make you laugh

  
  
  
  

I hope this blog encouraged you to live and laugh as you wait for love. Let me know how this encouraged you in the comments below.

Love,

Breanna Chavez