I Know Love

There comes a moment every so often where I just have to stop and think, “Wow, I am sitting right in the middle of what I once dreamed of.” A moment like this happened recently. 

“I’m living my dream life,” I told my sister. 

I can always count on her to bring me back to earth when I’m knee-deep in my delusions. “What are you talking about?” she asked, rolling her eyes and preparing to listen to yet another one of my fantasies LOL. 

I went on to explain how crazy it is that I’ve graduated from college, am working my dream job, am serving on a very special scholarship interview panel, and had just received a swoon-worthy “good morning beautiful” message from a guy I was talking to.

I’m glad I stopped to savor such a moment because as it always happens on this side of heaven, sin swooped in to steal my joy the very next day. I grew unsure of the situationship I was in, I was bored at my job, and I had a huge argument with my mom. These few days of ups and downs taught me that I MUST find my security in Jesus Christ alone and what He did for me on the cross. Everything else is fleeting. The things of this world are ever-changing- here one day and gone the next. But, God, He never changes, and I can always count on Him to welcome me back with open arms after I do everything in my power to make plans go MY way rather than submitting to His. 

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Back to the morning message I mentioned earlier. It wasn’t just any message; it was a voice message. And this guy didn’t just call me beautiful once, but twice, and in two different languages. Of course, it felt good to receive compliments from a boy I was getting to know, but I couldn’t help but laugh because this guy probably thought he had so much game. However, what he didn’t know is that my dad has been saying that very same line to me since I was a little girl. Cue “Tell Me Something I Don’t Know” by Selena Gomez. On an even deeper level, my Heavenly Father deemed me beautifully and wonderfully made before I even born (Psalm 139). 

Because I know I am already fully loved and cared for by both my Heavenly Father and my earthly father, I don’t have to fall for the first guy who gives me attention. This concept reminds me of the song “I Know Love” by Tate McRae and the Kid Laroi. While they claim to know love because they know each other, I know love because I know God (1 John 4:16).

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Although none of my situationships have turned into relationships, each boy has taught me a little bit more about myself and what I truly value in life. Shoutout to my parents because without them, I would’ve settled a long time ago. Because of their fierce love and protection, I have been spared so much heartbreak. 

I encourage you to get to know your Heavenly Father first and foremost. Then, hold out for a love that most closely matches His. It won’t be perfect, but it will be worth the wait. <3